Thursday 30 May 2013

I LOVE YOU TOO...

I love you too.
I miss saying those words.
Ain't nobody loving me but myself,
Ain't nobody sending me flowers and sprucing up my day.
Words that welcome the brittleness of my heart,
Not caring if it'll hurt.

I love you too.
Words that I long to have leave my lips,
To a well deserving stud on the other end.
Colour my heart in red,
Violet and royal blue,
Get my heart ready for a deserving stud at the other end,
Adorn my silk soft dress, hair well too arranged for an occasion nothing short of special,
Standing by my side,
a well deserving stud,
Of words I have longed to have leave my lips.

Love,
My dominant inspiration,
On a day as special as this one,
When I open the gates to my soul,
and let you in.

Quite the risk I'm taking, 
For a well deserved stud like you by my side,
Stand here long enough, will you?
Watch me crumble with desire to have you close,
Soft touch, calculated embrace,
Slow enough for me to feel every nerve ending awakened,
By yours credulous presence,

Maturity of my being,
after so many a hurt,
Will be more than ready to have it all in,
And take nothing out,
But the words I have longed to have leave my lips,
I love you too.

Wednesday 29 May 2013

HAPPENS TO ME ALL THE TIME...

Happens to me all the time,
Always in love
With a different guy,
Tonight's guy,
Oh he's different.
Charming Mister Right.
Cool, but he don't even know it.
Swept me, but he don't even know it.
He my Mister right.

Charmed me but he don't know it
Stole my heart tonight.
And even though you's got your heart not here,
I gats yours in me.

Happens to me all the time,
But you's my main man tonight.


Crazy I is,
But if that's what keeps you,
Then stay the night.
Happens to me all the time,
Always in love with a different guy.

Oh, you's different.
You smile right,
Love me right,
Talk right,
Oh you's Mister right,
In love with me tonight.

I hope it's a long night this one,
So I stick with you,
Don't wanna do it,
Like the other night.
Once and for a lifetime,
That's you, my man.
Not just for tonight,
but many a night,
Happens to me all the time,
But you's the night for a lifetime.


Thursday 16 May 2013

Here Now

Here now
I stand alone
I feel so lost
Never before have I so.
The light I've always followed,
Seems so blurred right now.

It does not
feel like light anymore
More of a blurry white spot.
If I lose sight of where I am going,
Of who I am,
What will I become?
Lost? Confused? Afraid?
Afraid.
That's what I am.
Fear to lose oneself is what engulfs me.
Call it jitters.
I call it fear.
My whole life, I've always believed.
Why is this happening now?
It's either my biggest break, or biggest fall.

Here now,
I stand alone.
You know who else stands alone?
Winners.
That's right!

When I'm not too confident,
I form my weakest link.
I become my own breaking point.
By God, I will not lose hope.
It may seem far off, but I,
I won't stop,
I won't stop believing,
I won't stop trying.
even if I keep failing,
Even if I keep hurting.
I got so much running on this.

I am this.
I am who I am,
And as long as I am breathing,
I still have the chance to strike at it.
Maybe that will be my life for a long time,
But I won't give up.
I'll keep trying,
Even if it takes,
My last breath.

Thursday 2 May 2013

Letter to a long lost love...

Are you okay?
Now ask me that.
I am not.
If you are not with me,
I am not fine,
I am not myself.

Every passing day, I wake up and hope it's the day you'll show up again.

I hope today is that day.

So much has happened since you left.
I landed that job I always told you about,
What's more, a bigger offer is in the offing.
I am going places love,
But all that don't make much sense,
because you are not here to celebrate with me.

My sisters,
They ask about you all the time.
Is he any taller nowadays?
I have no answer to that,
because even I don't know.
Are you?
Are you taller?
Darker?
Slimmer?
Do you still tell those jokes that were not really funny,
what made me laugh so hard was how you said them.

My sister's getting married.
Thought you should know that.
I think I am supposed to bring someone
All these men parading to come with me,
They got nothing on you.

They don't love me like you did.
They don't laugh like you do.
They do not make coffee and sausages like you do.
Truth is, they can't,
Because they are not you.

I can't make them.
Unfair, I know.
But I got a stubborn heart you see.
It is in constant fights with my mind,
Asking me to give him a chance,
But he is not you.
And like I said,
My heart is quite stubborn.
I push it towards that direction too,
Because I don't want to leave.
I want to sit here and wait for you.
I said I would love you for a thousand years.
It's only been a few months, so I'll keep waiting.

When it's time for me to go, I will.
I just hope that you will be by my side.
I am not living right.
I am not who I am supposed to be.
When you are not by my side, all is utterly lost.

Because you,
You are not here.