Tuesday 26 March 2013

MY SHORT HANDSOME BOY FRIEND

You are special to me.
Just my opening statement should tell you that.
I will show it to you as much as I can.

You know...
You are among the very few men who do not annoy me.






Around you I don't have to pretend,
When with you I don't have to have my face done,
or wear refreshed lipstick,
Because all I say make sense to you,
or hide my eyes under huge sunglasses,
Because you see right through me.
 
You are perfect in your own perfect way,
And that's why I love you very much.

I may not say this to your face
And I won't!

But you's a good guy.

Even writing you a poem comes easy,
I don't need to say alot of 'thou' and 'thine'
And break all rules of language known to me.

You are just special!

Thou art my solid rock of emotions,
the one I stand on,
When all that is within me,
And all I am without,
Stares me hard in the face.
When all winds are cruel on thine skin,
Shattered,
Discouraged,
Scared,

I know I can have ice cream with you,
And be well again.

My short handsome boy friend!




Thursday 21 March 2013

LIFE'S ULTIMATE GOAL...

You can only be as happy as you let yourself be. Even when things are not working like you want them to. But who says you should always be happy? What is happiness really?
Knowing oneself, that, is happiness.

Happiness is for all.Whoever knows oneself finds happiness. Knowing oneself so well that even some level of sadness makes us happy is life's ultimate goal. By knowing oneself, you'll trust yourself so much, that even in the heart of atrocity,you'll be still, because deep down you know wellness is on the way. Wellness, that which makes us happy, is not easy to come by. It's not easy to see.

Seeing it is as good as having it. Believe. That's all you need to do. Tell yourself that you are destined to be happy, and you shall be so. Wealth, health, love, friends, family, they make me happy.
Perhaps they make you happy too. Isn't that what we are all after? But hey, there's a catch you know. 

Knowing when we actually have these things is the serenity of wisdom. Sometimes we get so engrossed in looking for these things that we fail to realise when they do come to us. Finding love, is a great thing. Anyone who does so should count themselves blessed. 

Blessings do not have name tags on them. The amazing bit of a blessing is that so many people can share it, and yet no single person will feel as though they were getting less. Many times we keep praying and working hard for amazing things to happen in our lives. We loose track of what is ultimately important. People. They make life worth living. You work with people, talk to people, dream about people, love them, share their experiences, fight with them, laugh with them. You do everything with people.

People, are life's ultimate goal.

Sunday 10 March 2013

YOU DONE USED YOUR LAST STRAW ALREADY

I may not be strong enough to carry my loads,
and that's why I may need you there sometimes.

Not to help carry my load,
but to tell me that I'm strong enough.

Sometimes,
My load is just too heavy with baggage,
You may not understand,
But please don't judge me,
Just tell me I can.


The load I carry may be too heavy for me,
So heavy, that it comes so close to the ground,
So close I think I'll drop it!

But then I don't.

You may not be the best to help carry my load,
Because truth is,
You got your own load too.
 
I'm sober now, 
Not drunk as I was when I thought,
You,
Would actually help me.

Well move over you son of a gun.
I'll carry my loads myself. 
You pick yours,
and you stay away from me.

I've been carrying my load for a long damn time,
and I'm surely going to go on with my noble act. 
What use is a man,
if he can't help forge me forward.

I can do this myself. 
You heard me, all by myself.
You stay away.
You done used your last straw already.

Thursday 7 March 2013

YOU LOST A GOOD THING.

For the first time
In a long time,
I did not think about you with tears in my eyes.

I thought about you with a broad smile.

That is progress right there.
That is growth.

I developed today you see,
I recorded a notable change in my life that well, still involved you.


I can.
I have moved away from you.
I wake up and feel stronger without you.
I don't need you to lift me up anymore.
I can do that all by myself.

It took me too long, I know,
but that's the best way to heal dear.
I took time.

I let myself be sad.
I shed tears for me,
because I gave you too much.

Well, it's alright by me.
Being with you was one of the most amazing bits of my life.

If I could,
I would kill you for how badly it ended,
but that would mean I stain my hands with your blood for the rest of my life.
I gave you too much already,
the rest of my life is something I want to keep to myself.


I hope you have a good life,
and one day come to your senses and do realise,
that when you lost me dear,
you lost a good thing.