TO YOU.... FOR YOU...

Forgive me
I should have done this ages ago

No excuse is justifiable

You have always loved me
Even when I least deserved it

I should have dedicated this whole blog to You alone



Every time I have poured my heart out here
You were not the one I had in mind

God, I'm sorry

I love you too,
You know that

When all will turn their back against me
I will run to You
I know You will save me
Ha! You have done it a million times already

That's just who You are
More reason why I believe in You, 
Not for what You can do,
And that's a lot,
But for who You are
Who You have been
And who You will continue to be
In my life
With me
For me
By me
 
Please receive my humble appreciation for being my first love
Having loved me from the very beginning, till this far.

YOU KILLED ME FIRST

Don't be in no rush
Soon it will all be over

Girl you been here before
You cried these tears before

Even when you hurting me,
You are a fountain I wanna drink from


Even when it hurts,
I still wanna stay

Stupid I know
But I love it

No, no, no, no
Don't get it twisted
I am here out of my own choice

Soon you may be saying hello to goodbye
Or I just might decide to kill you instead

Street murder
I don't care

Legitimate,
I care
That which you did not do
You
I won't spare

You made me a murderer

I'll carry out my revenge first
I'll make it slow, not fast

Call the police
Call who you callin'

They need to come get you

For you killed me first.

THE DAY THAT WAS...

As I walked on by
I looked back
And there you were

Beltless
And I thought you looked hilarious

You did actually,
Look hilarious.

That was the very first time I knew I would be laughing a lot around you.
It's been long being with you



I however hope the days get longer and time moves slower
So I could be with you longer.

Stop the hands of time,
I will.
All I need to do is share what you have taught me over the years
With the words that'll resonate from my heart

Rhythmic isn't it?
How I want to always be with you
See you
Laugh with you
Tell you that I love you with all my heart.

Yes, I did promise.
I promised then,
And even though it may be hard sometimes
I will keep the promise for days to come.

Remind me of it like you have before
Should I veer off and slip

Forgive me darling,
If I happen to love you too much
I can't help it you see

You've taken over me!

I wanted that,
Both then and now.

Oh what joy you bring me
Smiles I have seen rarely in this life

Happiness is not the constant joy I get when with you,
It is the fights,
Knowing I want to fight with you
Because we always work it out.

It is the tears,
Knowing you will always wipe them away,

Happiness with you
Is more than just laughter

Happiness with you is life itself

I am alive when with you.

JUST BECAUSE....

Just because I left
Does not mean I do not love you anymore

Just because I choose to love you from a distance
Does not mean I never cared at all

Just because I laugh when I'm with you
Does not mean I don't cry when I'm alone



Just because I say I need you all the time
Does not mean I don't want you to need me

Stay away
Let me be
Sad while away from you
Just because I don't want to hurt anymore

I can still see you when I close my eyes
Still smell you
See you around me all the time
when that did not even happen

You were not around me all the time
Just because I didn't talk like you wanted
Walked like you wanted
Laughed like you wanted
Just because I wasn't me like you wanted

Just because I'm not you
Does not mean I'm not real
Everything I am
What I say
What I do
That's who I am
Just because I want to be me

Love me back
Just because I am me

LAUGHTER IN MY HEART

No
They lied to you
My life is nothing like that
My life is not perfect

I cry
And I sulk
I blame people for my sadness
I have also contemplated killing them

I looked at one the other time and thought
No, they do not deserve to live



Because it was they
Who took away my life

How dare they walk untouched,
like nothing
nobody died

But I did

I wanted to shout it on the roof tops
Tell the whole world to crucify them
I shouted
And even though some felt it would be legitimate murder
I realised what damage I was doing to my own lungs

I had shouted so much I couldn't breathe easy

And I am falling
High from my mountain

They try to catch me,
Bu I am moving too fast
I am almost hitting the ground
I am in the air
With nothing to hold on to

I am in the air

Wait,but
I am in the air

I am free
The hand I once held so firmly
Is not holding me down anymore

I am free
I can breathe easy

Alas!
I can shout too,but this time
Through my music
Through the beautiful rhythm created by the laughter in my heart

NOT ANYMORE...

I wrote a song about you
And it all made sense then
You lift me
and when I'm so high
There you go
Dropping me like you never knew me before


It's not easy being me right about now
Right
What I thought was with you


At least I thought
You never did any of that.



You simply walk in, take charge
And walk out

Here me now darling
Not anymore.

You had your chance
You played with it
Blame a man for being slow and letting this angel go, right?

What I thought was with you
Wrong I was
Wrong

Lillies and roses
Beauty and happiness
Grace and joy
All what I offered
For I thought it would all be right
What was with you

For you can blame a man for being slow and letting this angel go, right?

What I thought was with you
Wrong I was
Wrong

Darling I will miss you
But you will miss me more
I loved you for a thousand years
But it's time for me to start counting again

With someone else.

LET IT RAIN

Pour it on me

Like the rain

All over me

Wash away my tears

Cleanse my body

Let it all go away

All that I have done

Wrong in their eyes

All seemed right with you

That's all right with me too

No, I don't need warmth,

If all you do is rain.

They kept promising the sun,

Half of it or none maybe

Is all they offered.

You have always been afraid

That that is all you may offer me,

But know this here and now my love,

You have given me all the warmth the sun could never possibly give me.

In this rain, I have known happiness with you,

In this rain

Not a day goes by without new yield,

without new laughter,

Laughter I have not known in years.

I loved you then.

I love you now.

And Oh I will continue to love you for days to come,

Years, if heavens let me.

I got nothing to say to them anymore.

They have showered me with more than just rain,

The day they sent you to cross my path,

To shield me from all the waves

Tides

Waters I could not prevail.

Let it rain blessings,

Let it rain Honor,

Let it rain,

More and more.

Let it rain you.